Wendy's Story Posted April 3, 2005 My first pregnancy was a big surprise and I was so excited. I was eighteen and engaged to a horrible man but yet the baby was my ray of hope. My fiance was a very abusive and hated children. I felt like I would never be able to get away from him. I became pregnant in April of 2002 with my first child. My fiance and I were on the rocks but he wouldn't let me leave the relationship. Five months went by and my stomach began to grow. I couldn't believe I was having a baby. In September of 2002 my fiance at the time came home and was upset about something that I can't even remeber. He was slamming things around and throwing things at me. I curled up into a little ball trying to protect my innocent child. In the end, that night would be one of our last together. My fiance kicked my in the stomach several times. I can remember the pain I felt as if it was yeterday. I left the house that evening and went and stayed with my parents. They vowed I would never go back and they would do anything they could to protect us. Two days later I went into labor early and there was nothing they could do. My baby was born too early, they could not save him. My poor inoccent child died at the hands of a person who didn't want him anyway. I spent several months crying and trying to move on with my life. In January of 2003 I met my husband at the college I was attending. He was very understanding of what had happened and let me take things very slowly. At Easter he asked me to be his wife. It was one of the happiest days of my life. We knew that we wanted to have a family together, he loves children as much as I do. We started to try but nothing happened. In September 2003 we were married. We were sure then that we wanted to start our family. We went to the doctor who told us everything was fine. I was very healthy and so was my husband. We became pregnant in Feburary of 2004 but at 8 weeks, I miscarried. We waited, but to our surprise, we became pregnant in March only to lose that baby in early April. The doctor assured us that nothing was wrong -- that we tried too soon after the first miscarriage and that we should wait a few months and try again. We did and became pregnant in June of 2004. To our great disappointment, we lost that one too, in July. We decided to take a break from trying. It was becoming too hard to bear. The doctor wouldn't run any tests, he kept telling us everything was fine. In January I went to a different doctor for my yearly checkup. The tests he ran showed that my progesterone levels were extremely low -- that's what was causing me to miscarry... It was a relief to know that it wasn't something that I had done and that I could stop blaming myself. They have just prescibed our first treatment of clomid. Hopefully this will give us the baby or our dreams.