Sandy's Story Posted March 29, 2008 After having read encouraging stories of struggle and then ultimate success I decided to share my story of our ongoing difficult journey, with all. I have struggled all through my life, however the journey of fertility has by far been the most difficult one. It is not just the journey but the new mothers and "on the drop of a hat"pregnancies around us that gets us stressed and depressed. Our journey started off in August of 2006 when we started trying to have a baby on our vacation. The trying went on for 1 year and by then we had all our friends get pregnant, deliver a baby and now even celebrate their 1st birthdays and all we do is throw baby showers for others and decorate for OTHER childrens birthday parties. We started on clomid and HCG shots in the start of 2007 and in 4 months my OBGYN gave up and reffered me to an RE in northern California. I cried that day, at my OBGYNs office and was very embarrassed for doing that. Then all the tests and blood work took up close to 3 months and we relaxed, attended more baby showers and baby birthdays and cried ourselves to bed. After the test we were put into the category of "unexplained infertility". My RE started me on IUI without Clomid since I had a cyst on one of my ovaries due to the follicle not having ruptured last month because I did not take a HCG shot the previous month - I do not spontaneously ovulate. The first IUI with one follicle was unsuccessful. So I decided to not lose hope and be strong and try acupunture and TCM. The acupuncturist told me to eat cooked food and veggies, to have lamb before ovulation and poultry after ovulation plus I was on 100 mg Clomid (with no side effects) and on TCM herbs, Walah ! I had a 21mm follicle but just one and was ready for IUI on day 17 after being triggered on day 16. I started on progestrone suppositories on day 19th. I was nauseous, dizzy, tired and spotted on day 8-9th dpiui. I was soooo sure I was pregnant, just to see spotting on day 13th. Today is day 13 and I am very sad, I am cramping really badly and bleeding more than spotting. This IUI is a failed one too. I believe in God and the belief is slowly diminishing. However I do beleive that no one can change what is supposed to happen to you. So me and my husband are just hanging in there, hoping for a miracle to happen. Hoping that one morning even we will get a positive and that even we will have a baby shower and the first baby birthday. Please pray for me and I pray for every women out there going through this journey and I stand up and bow down to these BRAVE women. TONS of baby dust to all of us. We all will be fine !